Ashtangi Confessions

Before I share #5 I would like to mention that after two weeks of daily pranayama I will go ahead and confess that I do not notice a great difference in stamina. What I do notice is a remarkable difference in my levels of equanimity and calm mindedness. I know this because I am being quizzed and challenged on that daily. Every day since October 7th. I did get interrupted by 3 days of a a very clogging flu, so I am still optimistic about stamina results in the near future.

So #5: Always assuming that the teacher is heading in your direction because you are doing something wrong or half assed. Maybe I am doing something thatย  she notices that has improved and I just need a tiny assist to finally get to the full expression of the pose, but is that my fist thought? Never. I see people waiting patiently to see if they get a little help, and not just the ones practicing second. Me? It’s always why attract the fuzz, blend, blend!!

11 thoughts on “Ashtangi Confessions

  1. That’s how it starts:-) The calmness and equanimity is good all while the nadis are being cleared out. Since there are 72K of them, it’s def a process ๐Ÿ˜Ž Sorry to hear you got hit with flu๐Ÿ˜Ÿ

  2. So funny. Yes the breathing comes slowly first before stamina and better all the time, yet sometimes the flu gets in the way;-) The ego and assists are always at battle. Sometimes a teacher is trying to let you be to explore, see where your at, learn to find some independence..while the ego says why no love today? ๐Ÿ˜‰ other times a teacher can be all over you pushing your limits and showing you ideally the potential you can reach for next, while the ego says oh my god I must be doing something terribly wrong to get all this attention! Some days it’s serendipititous are we are aligned ego and body to take it in somedays not, same as breath, somedays more calm somedays more labored. The key is in just accepting (humor helps!) where you are and letting go of the ego so you can enjoy the time on the mat. Process versus product, something I strive for and fail at some point everyday but hey were just human and it’s all just practice!

  3. last month was yoga immersion month at our shala. i participated and some pranayama sessions were offered throughout the month (along with meditation, mindfulness techniques, yoga nidra, etc.) which i took advantage of. i challenged myself to practice pranayama every day either before or after my practice (usually mysore) and i noticed the same thing – being more calm in mind, and i felt so much more balanced. still keeping the pranayama before or after my practice and i too hope it brings more stamina. i love it so much – and i didn’t think i would. hoooooooray for pranayama! keep it up (and i will be, too)!

  4. I love that you used the word ‘Fuzz’.

    Kate told me re: pranayama don’t expect much for about 6 weeks of steady practice, only then does something interesting start to happen. My Life Explosion threw me off but I’ll get back to it tomorrow. Assuming I have to re-start the 6 week clock however.

    • I think only you and me enjoyed that.

      I will hang on to Kate’s estimate because everything else is falling apart. I think that is what is meant when we keep hearing always a beginner.

  5. Missing other postings from you ๐Ÿ™‚ I like the confessions but in the past your daily posts were so informational. I know – sounding like a demanding blog reader! LOL!

    • Thank you so much. I am kind of banged up right now with a sore waist/back and I am kind of investigating how to transition from Chaturanga to upward dog without pain. I hesitate to write whine after whine because it is bad for my head. Will report when it is almost sorted out. Always a beginner right?

  6. Oh sorry to hear๐Ÿ˜” and I understand as I am physically not in the best place with my own practice either. I actually have been taking some breaks by practicing every other day and getting some massage therapy so that has helped. Also my chiropractor has helped a lot…my left lower back was shortening itself to where I literally lost the ability to turn out in poses like Baddha Konasana without lots of pain. Normally I am wide open In the hips. Ahhh the body and its stuff! ๐Ÿ˜Ž Take good care๐Ÿ™

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